A first time for everything....

I got "joked" into baking bread last night. My good friend Hanlie took it upon herself to turn me into a domestic goddess. Ok, not a goddess but I don't think she actually thought I would BAKE A BREAD. See my friends know me too well, they know I don't cook!! Never mind attempt to bake. I figured, I'll show them!!!

I have been sitting around all morning deciding what bread to bake. I popped out the shops and bought dough. Ok, yes granted it is ready mixed and everything dough, but I still had to roll it out and make the bread right? That counts?



I did ask my dear friend Nicki over from Franken Family Diary for help. But she's even worse in the kitchen than me. (Love you hun) But you laughed your @ss off when I asked you for help.... She did however point out that I needed a tin to put the bread in. So thanks for that. ;-)



Now you wondering what the glass is doing there next to the cheese grater. Well I don't have a rolling pin. So yeah, I took a long glass and used that. Smart huh? I proceeded to then add some crushed garlic and grated cheese. Rolled it up like a swiss roll. Took a sosatie (kebab) stick stuck it through to make sure the bread wouldn't pop open. Very smart hey?????



And into the oven it went. Hold thumbs please!! Now how long does bread bake for. Once again I run to my skype and ask my assistant chef. Nope she doesn't know. LOL.



Bake bake bake.......



Looks yummy hey? :)

Baking a bread, check, done that, will get the apron!

How EXCITING!!!!!

Check this out!!! I'm super excited. My eBook is listed on the e-Library site.

Go on take a look: Baking Maybe's

Looking for a Husband

Last night McK announced that she thinks Gabby needs a husband. Now if you remember Gabby is our new pet (just over a month) - Our little Dwarf Hamster.

McK says Gabby needs a husband so that she can have babies. Glad my daughter is under that impression. We don't want Gabby getting knocked up before her big wedding day now do we? LOL Even though I have explained to McK it's ok that some people still have children if they aren't married. We have had the whole dad and dad, mom and mom discussion too. I sometimes think I over load my daughter with too much info, but I would rather that she knows not everything is done by the book, if you know what I mean. And it's OK.

So anyway where does one go to find a eligible hamster bachelor? I live on Google, and not once have I seen any Rodent Dating sites. :) My requirements are friendly non biting male, who won't hog all the sunflower seeds. McK says he just needs to be a good dad and husband. The innocence.

I doubt we will actually be getting Gabby a Hubby. One cute midnight wheel running hamster is more than enough to keep me awake. Besides my luck she will fall pregnant on her first try, with Quintuplets. Wouldn't that be a slap in my infertile face?

Thought I had escaped....

The flu this winter, but it seems like it might still catch me. I've woken up with a sore scratchy throat and one killer headache. Argh, I really couldn't face being sick now either. :(

Is anyone having problems clicking on their "followers"???? I used to be able to click on a follower and then be able to go to their blog. But now it won't do anything? Is it just me? Did I do something? HELP? Anyone?

I've also been reading some info on St. John's Wort. My MIL gave me some herbal pills to help me relax the past few weeks. Believe me, I needed something... But I see it has St. John's Wort in it. Did a quick google and it says to stop taking SJW one month before starting to TTC. Darn it. I know we are on a break right now, but that doesn't mean we are "avoiding", so I guess I shouldn't take those pills either hey?

I'm going to try this month to relax a bit more about TTC. Last cycle I did pretty good until I started getting antsy about testing. Don't think I will ever be able to ditch the pee-ing habit. But I'm going to try really hard not to get sucked in again. Can't promise though..... ;-)

"One Lovely Blog Award".

Wow, I got given a "One Lovely Blog Award" by Propeller Head Mom Thank you so much! If any of you have some "get better vibes" hanging around, please go dust Christine's blog.



The rules of the "One Lovely Blog Award" are:
Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

At first I wasn't sure who I would like to forward this award to. But I've discovered a few new blogs recently, especially since I've joined Twitter Moms. I of course had to throw in good friends/old blogs I've been reading because I think their blogs deserve it! Also found some inspiring blogs that deal with infertility.

I would like to pass this Lovely award on to the following blogs:

Chanda from Other Everyday Stuff

Rentia from Super Mom

Tiffany from The Pifer Family

Buzzy's Mama at The Buzz & Less

Morrisa V at Vollmerhausen Family

Laura at Ziggys

Michelle at Simply Blessed

Single Mama at Single Mama Challenges

Amy at Every day Mama Drama

LZ at My messy paradise

Megs at Finding Family

R. Wallis at True Beauty

Kelli at Praying for our Little Miracle

Hillary at Making me Mom

Karien at Life’s Miracles

Go pop by their blogs and see why I think they are LOVELY!

Edited to add: Ok, I got past the nervousness of letting my nominee's know that I gave them an award. It's quite nerve racking! But I've enjoyed discovering these new blogs!

Weekend Past

Am I going to bore you with the details of our weekend? Or just leave you with this pic of DH and I?

Maybe a bit of both :)

Yesterday was my Grandfather's 70th Birthday Lunch. Thank goodness the weather played along and we got to spend the afternoon lazing in the sun and enjoying each others company.

I also went from being the "best mommy in the world" at 9:30am to the "rudest mommy in the world" by 6:00pm. All because I wouldn't buy Madam a Bratz doll. I hate negotiating my status as worst/best mom in the middle of a super market with an audience watching what my next move is going to be.

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Exciting news. My eBook Baking Maybe's is doing quite well, if I may say myself. Here is another review I would like to share with you all.

I thoroughly enjoyed the read. I definitely related with the whole cycle journey with smiles, laughs, a lump in my throat from sheer gratitude that what I go through and feel is normal and felt by other woman out there.

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Please go visit Mckmama's blog. Little Stellan (and family) could sure do with a few extra prayers at this time.

HOW?

My adorable tantrum queen 5 year old is now at the stage where she is asking HOW? How do we make trees? How do we make roads? How do we make light bulbs?

This morning while getting dressed for school, we were talking about c-sections. Don't know how the conversation started. McK knows that she was "cut" out of mommy's tummy. She has seen the photos. Anyway, so we are chatting and she is asking me about whether it was sore or not etc. Then she looks at me and says "mommy, how do...." pause..... I'm thinking oh cr@p here comes the How does the baby get there question. I look at her, she then contiunes "how do you make socks?" Sjoe, relief... we can save the Birds & Bees chat for another day.

AF is freaking killing me! I can hardly walk up straight. It feels like my uterus is being wrung dry. Is wrung the right word? You know when you take a wet dish cloth and try to get all the water out. That is what it feels like. Argh..... I hate it...

Oooh, we got to meet my cousin Laura's baby girl today. Emma is just over 2 months and so cute!! Here is a pic of the precious little girlie. Just look at those cheeks!!!



Have a great weekend!

Hello cycle 43

43

Coincidence, I clicked onto Face Book and saw a link for a site called 43 things. It's basically a support site where you list your goals and share your stuff I guess. I haven't checked it out yet, but just thought it was funny. The day cycle 43 starts, and I stumble across a site called 43things.

What have I discovered over the last 3 years - 43 cycles:

1) Patience (some, not totally)
2) Compassion
3) Jealousy
4) Friendship
5) Sisterhood
6) Anger
7) Sadness
8) Disappointment
9) Kick Ass Pain Killers
10) It's OK to cry about your body failing you miserably
11) Laughing about your body failing you miserably
12) New colourful swear words
13) I'm not in control of this
14) A fabulous new Doctor
15) Twitter
16) More Anger
17) More Sadness
18) Frustration
19) Happy tears
20) Praying really hard
21) Bitterness
22) Putting life on hold
23) Going through all the WHAT IFs
24) Going through all the WHAT NOTs
25) Estimated Due Dates coming and going
26) Pain
27) Love
28) Murphy's Law
29) Life is unfair at times
30) Excitement
31) A BFP doesn't always = healthy baby
32) A lot of sighing
33) Tantrums (me being the one throwing them)
34) Talking to my ovaries
35) Begging my uterus to co-operate
36) Heart palpitations
37) Nervousness
38) High expectations
39) Pessimistic attitude
40) Hissing when I see a BFP that doesn't belong to me
41) Leather Cat suites (LOL)
42) Déjà vu
43) Convincing yourself it's going to be ok ;-)

LOL Sorry..... Should have updated...

Of course I have, twice!! Both BFN. Silly me.... Really what was I expecting?

Anyway, I actually wanted to do a word less Wednesday post. But now it's going to be a two sentence then a pic post :)

I got an AWARD :)

Ah thanks hun, I got given this award by R. Wallis @ TrueBeauty You should most definitely go check out her blog!!!

I'm HONESTLY HONEST!



I'm passing it on to:

Shannon from Confessions
Nicki from Franken Family

The requirement for accepting this award is to list 10 things about myself that you all may not know. Hmmmm, this is hard, because I once did a 100 things about me way back (170 posts ago) when I hit my 100th blog entry. But maybe my new readers of late haven't read that yet. So here goes:

1) I have 4 tattoo's. Chinese sign for dream, my daughters name, a lizard and an Angel.
2) I have an nose ring. I've only recently gotten used to the fact of changing it. I kept the original permanent stud in for years. Go read this post about the day I changed the stud.
3) I sometimes smoke (a cigarette) when I have had too much a little to drink.
4) Out of the 24 hours of a day, I'm usually in a bad mood for about 4 total hours.
5) I'm addicted to on line forums and blogs.
6) I ate Sushi for the first time about three weeks ago, and DID NOT like it.
7) If it was socially acceptable I would drink a beer with breakfast. (no I'm not an alcoholic)
8) I don't shave my legs very often, especially not in winter :)
9) I can't stand it when someone talks to me from another room, rather just be in front of me and don't talk through the walls.
10) I hate telephones/cell phones. I'll rather email you or text message before I pick up the phone and call you......

Well that's it. :)

Just a bit of fun....

Baking Maybe’s

SCHEDULING STATUS:
Any level of trying to conceive (TTC)

PROPRIETARY NAME
(and dosage form):
Baking Maybe’s eBook

COMPOSITION:
Each eBook contains:
Valuable lessons in TTC
Sanity savers
Tips and advice

INDICATIONS:
Baking Maybe’s eBooks are indicated for the relief of knowing you are not alone in the TTC world and that you are normal for feeling the way you feel. A concise and information rich eBook aimed at couple’s who are starting out on their TTC journey. Baking Maybe’s will give you a comprehensive understanding of exactly how your monthly cycle works, and in so doing, equip you with all the knowledge to ensure that you create the best possible environment for a positive result.

CONTRA-INDICATIONS:
Patients who are sensitive to fertile vibes and do not want to fall pregnant should not be given the Baking Maybe’s eBook.

WARNINGS:
The products or advice featured in this eBook are not intended to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent fertility.

DOSAGE AND DIRECTIONS FOR USE:
Adults: (Two consenting Adults)
One to two chapters four hourly. Consult your doctor if no pregnancy is obtained with the recommended time period of one year.

SIDE EFFECTS AND SPECIAL PRECAUTIONS:
Patients reading the eBook have reported the urge to urinate on either a home pregnancy test or anything resembling a possible desired affect of two lines.

KNOWN SYMPTOMS OF OVERDOSAGE AND PARTICULARS OF ITS TREATMENT:
Baking Maybe’s has no known symptoms of overdose and can be read over and over again.

IDENTIFICATION:
Baking Maybe’s comes in a PDF downloadable eMail in your inbox.

PRESENTATION:
Pages and pages of valuable information and sincere obsession.

STORAGE INSTRUCTIONS:
Store below 25°C in a folder on your PC. Keep out of reach of children.

REGISTRATION NUMBER:
T/2.8/244

NAME AND ADDRESS OF THE APPLICANT:
Making Babies
Marcelle Murray

DATE OF PUBLICATION OF THIS PACKAGE INSERT:
30 June 2009

Not my Child!

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

I’ve always wanted to take part in the NOT ME MONDAYS but due to different time zone, I always miss it. But I’m alone tonight, still waiting for DH to get home from work.

When I saw the NOT MY CHILD, I thought I just have to take part.

It was not my child that screamed blue murder in the ice cream aisle at the super market. It wasn’t her that then proceeded to throw the shopping baskets over all because of ice lollies that weren’t going to make their way home. Definitely not my child.

It’s not my child that stands in public places shoving her finger so far up her nose, that the fear of it getting stuck hasn’t actually crossed her mind? She would never do that.

It’s not my child that loves to take chewed bubble gum out of her parent’s mouths and make her own bubbles. Nope definitely not my child.

There are so many things that my child just would not do, looking forward to sharing more of those with you......

Would you love to join the Not my child! Monday fun? Click on over to MckMama

Old habits die hard

Tell me it’s normal that I remember exactly what time I last P-ed. That in a split second I can work out the time and how long it’s been. 2hrs, 27min and 45 seconds. It’s 11dpo. I’m thinking about testing. I didn’t test this morning, because I knew I’m just being totally pathetic at even entertaining the thought that just maybe we got lucky. Now this morning I read through posts and blogs and I WANT TO PEE ON A STICK. I was doing so well. So freaking well. My p time logs are totally normal right? Not an insanity side effect from TTC just too damn long right?

Even while typing this entry, I’ve thought about POAS 12 times. YES, 12 times!!! I know this probably sounds crazy to some, but TTC girls you know what I’m talking about. I know I have your sympathy right? What is the solution? I go POAS, I stand up and go to the loo right now…..

Yeah then for the next hour, and you know it’s going to be a full hour. I sit looking, tilting, squinting at a little strip. Imagining that I see “something” when in actual fact there is absolutely nothing to look at. You know I’m going to hold it up against plain white paper, purple coloured paper, against the fridge and of course the egg shell colour of my office walls. Just to check, to make absolutely sure.

Why put myself through this torture. Simple…. Because I can. Because it’s easier than sitting here thinking about doing it. Just do it. Ok, don’t do it. No, just do it. Get it over with. No, don’t do it. Argh…… wish me luck……

UPDATED: LOL - BFN Like I was expecting anything else. But at least I've satisfied the craving.

Oh, BTW those that have Face Book, I have made it easy to now follow my blog on FB, Just click here

Some Friday Humour....

(And because I have nothing to say really...)

MELANIE (age 5) asked her Granny how old she was. Granny replied she was so old she didn't remember any more.. Melanie said 'If you don't remember you must look in the back of your panties. Mine say five to six.'

BRITTANY (age 4) had an ear ache and wanted a pain killer. She tried in vain to take the lid off the bottle. Seeing her frustration, her Mom explained it was a child-proof cap and she'd have to open it for her. Eyes wide with wonder, the little girl asked: 'How does it know it's me?'

CLINTON (age 5) was in his bedroom looking worried When his Mom asked what was troubling him, he replied 'I don't know what'll happen with this bed when I get married. How will my wife fit in it?'

MARC (age 4) was engrossed in a young couple that were hugging and kissing in a restaurant. Without taking his eyes off them, he asked his dad: 'Why is he whispering in her mouth?'

This particular Sunday sermon...'Dear Lord' the minister began with arms extended toward heaven and a rapturous look on his upturned face. 'Without you, we are but dust...' He would have continued but at that moment my very obedient daughter who was listening leaned over to me and asked quite audibly in her shrill little four year old girl voice 'Mom, what is butt dust?'

Have a great weekend!!!

LOL

Ok, I have to share this.... thought it was ridiculously funny. So I was playing around on FF just now. Yes, ok so I already cracked yesterday so let me be. Anyway. I went and looked at the EDD(estimated due date)....... wait for it.........

1 April 2010.. Now that would be the best April's fools joke ever! Me get a BFP and the EDD is 1 April. What ever.....

For some reason I can not get the words in my mind down to paper (well in this case, PC screen – Word Document). I can see them swirling in my head but when I try to type them they don’t come out the way they should. It’s like I’m trying to speak but nothing wants to come out.

Today is just a day where my heart is in my throat. I read blogs of couples trying to conceive and I can feel their pain. I read blogs of families loosing their precious babies, and my heart aches because what if that was me? I read blogs of growing bellies, and smile but my heart still yearns to be writing the same words as them.

I want to shout from the roof tops but also whisper in someone’s ear…. The message I’m not quite sure. Hopefully it will come to me. I don’t know if it’s a message for me or for someone else? Or for all of us.

(No I have not been drinking – it’s still morning in my part of the world).

I'm missing something or someone. Argh, this is frustrating. Come on words, get out……

Bugger

I was doing such a great job at ignoring my cycle. But then curiosity got the better of me and I stumbled across Fertility Friend. Fire Fox had already automatically entered my user name and password in. All I had to do was click on "LOGIN". I looked away from the screen, looked back. Thought about going for a walk to get my mind off it. But would you know my finger got stuck on the mouse and clicked. Darn it.

I stared at the screen, trying not to make sense of the numbers and dates in front of me. Then I saw on the top, FF has given you FREE VIP 5 day trail. Darn it. So I clicked further, added some stuff. Made up a possible O date (I don't really know when I Oed) And I can't even remember the one time we actually did BD this month. Yeah can you believe I just typed that last sentence? I'm guessing I'm about 5dpo (CD18 today). Had a quick peek to see when AF is due, on Pay Day. Darn it. I so didn't want to know.

Going to go try and crawl back under my non-TTC rock. Try to hum, maybe that will make me forget all the info I just read.

Oh and I'm still social networking, my latest quest is The Blog Frog




TheBlogFrog turns your blog into a social blog. TheBlogFrog is also a personal blog directory. It helps you find blogs by High School, College, Email, and more. TheBlogFrog can even suggest bloggers you probably know, just by looking at your blog.

Smoke FREE

I didn't think he would do it. I thought I would have to negotiate and plead. But DH actually stopped smoking 1 July 2009. (Now I can't be sure that he hasn't cheated but I would like to believe that he hasn't) He has also been taking his supplements like a good boy.

Must say McK and I still suffer under the mood swings that comes with giving up smoking. But it's all worth it. Our house doesn't smell like an astray any more. We are actually saving money by not having to buy a pack a day. Hopefully this will also help with his Sperm Health.

So here is to healthy sperm and Spring BFPs.

Please grant me the serenity
To accept things I can not change

Please give me the courage
To change those things I can

And please give me the wisdom
So I may recognize the difference.

I had this whole post idea in mind. But I think I’m going to save it for another day and rather leave you with the above mentioned prayer passage.

Oh on a side note. I had another run in with breast milk today. Not only fresh breast milk, but puked up breast milk. I’m handling it a lot better than my first run in a few weeks ago.

Now you ask, breast milk?, come on you have a daughter already? Aha, but I didn’t breast feed her. So I’ve never ever even touched my own breast milk, let a lone some strangers.

Square eyes

My mother always told us (when we were little) that watching too much TV would make our eyes go square. I wonder if this applies to the insane amount of time I've been spending in front of my PC lately?

I've been socializing. LOL, no not the get out there, meet new friends, see places, do things.... are you insane? That would require me leaving my office. I'm talking about getting social within the comfort of my little internet world.

I found the coolest network with fellow bloggers on! So awesome, it's going to take me days to check out the place. I feel like I'm in heaven. MORE BLOGS!!! Better than chocolate. (was going to say an ice cold beer, but that's stretching it a bit).

On the work front:

Making Babies members you will notice that I've stream lined the forum section. Aren't the new categories much better to work with? Please make use of this new set up. Look forward to chatting to you there!

On the TTC front:

Oh yeah, we not TTC. I forgot. LOL. I think I Oed yesterday. Did we BD, nope. LOL. No 2ww obsession for me!! Whoo hoo. I might actually survive this break.

Have a great weekend!

Don't tell my brain

But my right ovary is aching! Usually I O from my left ovary, 9 out of 10 times I will O from my left. Please don't let my brain realize this, then she will go conspire with my heart and the next thing you know we are attempting to maybe hopefully miraculously conceive on a break cycle.

Every now and then I read through sites about conception. You know to just refresh my brain, find new articles to share with my Making Babies members and all that. I had to laugh when I saw this "advice tidbit":

Lot of factors involved to get pregnent, not only sperm count,or good morphology, even everything goes well but somehow sperm should go through Fallpen tube. Those who has low sperm count or bad mophology, my suggestion is that woman should reamin in bed at least half an hour after sex and do more sex during ovulation period.

I was going to fix up the spelling mistakes in the above quote but left it as is. I LOVE the do more sex during ovulation period. No shit Sherlock! Really you think? Ok, maybe I'm the only one that finds that very funny.

Oh BTW, I'm guest blogging on a friends blog some time today. I will let you know once the post is up and give you the link. :)

UPDATE: Click on the blog button to go read my dear friend Meg's blog

No wonder....

In order to fall pregnant you need the following:

A healthy egg
Healthy sperm
Perfect timing
Clear tubes

Right?? Sperm breezes through tubes meets egg. They travel back to the uterus and implant. Easy peasy!!

Do you know how many basic things can go wrong besides the obvious?

The outer shell of the egg, the Zona Pellucida, usually hardens after the chosen sperm enters the egg. It is possible that the outer shell does not allow the lucky sperm to enter, or allows too many sperm to enter the egg. (Greedy egg) Both these situations result in abnormalities that lead to infertility.

OR

Once an egg is fertilized, there is an 80 percent chance of cell division. The rate of division of the resulting embryo is also of significance. Usually 48 hours after fertilization, the embryo is between two to four cells. At 72 hours, they are usually between six to eight cells. After five days of growth, they are usually over 120 cells with a fluid cavity in the middle - known as the Blastocyst. If a larger than expected percentage of embryos divide slowly or stop dividing at any stage, this can result in infertility.

OR

There can also be problems with normal implantation of the embryo once it reaches the uterus lining. This can be due to the presence or absence of certain important factors needed for implantation at the level of the uterus or the embryo. The outer shell of the embryo can be too hard or thick and not allow hatching of the embryo out of its shell (Zona Pellucida). This can result in a lower chance of implantation. Hence no pregnancy.

Goodness me, no wonder I’m not pregnant yet. There are just too many factors that can go wrong. Dumb luck I guess. (And the fact that we don’t have the best sperm to begin with.)

Aaaahhhhhh

Congrats Lisa and DH!!!

Our second Making Babies baby has just entered the world. A huge congrats to Lisa on the birth of their son, Cole. May he bring you all the happiness in the universe!

It's so amazing to get these birth announcements especially after following the pregnancy's from day 1, and not forgetting the frustration and heartache of the trying to conceive journey that came before the joy.

Not such a blue Monday....

For everyone around me. (Mine is more cobalt blue, not baby blue....)

I've been receiving good news all round this morning. Every 10 minutes when I click send/receive on my mail or refresh on one of the forums. BFPs galore and excitement. It's giving me a headache. LOL.

I must say I'm getting more and more impressed with these Fertile XX/XY drops. Not only did friend report last week about her Fertile XY success story with regards to improvement of her DH's sperm. Quote her doctors words: "has never seen such a 'powerful' sample.".... I just got an email 5 minutes ago from a client that has been using XY and XX this last cycle, and just got her BFP. :)

Very Exciting!!

I also have another possible BFP in the making with another friend who I've been in contact with this whole cycle (of hers). Will confirm on Wednesday with bloods.

Then our next Making Babies baby is entering the world tomorrow!!! Lisa, wishing you all the best. Enjoy every minute!

I'm in a terrible mood today. Ready to kill anyone who crosses my path today. Yes, KILL....... Be warned. It's good that I have a split personality. See I can be totally excited about all the good news today, and still be violently inclined at the same time. :)

I'm famous for my weird dreams. My friends often sit there shaking their heads when I recall my dream from the previous night. Last night was one for the books.

There was this black eagle/hawk type bird. Massive. I remember his yellow beak and rings around his eyes. He got stuck in my hair!!!! By his claws. Yes, in my dream I had long hair. Not the current pixie short cut I have now. So there I'm running around with an Eagle attached to my head. If I try to get him off, he would bite the cr@p out of me. I kept begging everyone around me to kill the stupid bird!! But everyone just stared blankly at me. As if it was totally normal to have a bird stuck to your head.

I actually woke up this morning with one mother of a headache. Yeah don't laugh, you try carrying a 4kg bird on your head!

So I clicked on Dream Moods to go see what this all meant.

To see an eagle in your dream, symbolizes nobility, pride, fierceness, freedom, superiority, courage, and powerful intellectual ability. It also represents self-renewal and your connection with your spirituality. You will struggle fiercely and courageously to realize your highest ambitions and greatest desires.

I like the powerful intellectual ability. You know I got that!

To see an eagle chained down in your dream, represents a desperate situation where you are feeling restricted and confined. You are unable to express yourself and be who you really want to be. Consider also what the eagle is chained down to for additional clues as to what might be holding you back.

Ok, he was tied down to my hair.... Hmmmmm

If your hair is knotted or tangled, then it is symbolic of uncertainty and confusion in your life. You may be unable to think straight.

So right. :)

I'm super excited for tomorrow. I will be meeting up with a fellow infertility warrior! I'm hoping she gets her BFP today though. But if not, girl we are going to have some drinks tomorrow on stupid AF!!

Making Babies first Baby!!!!

I'm so proud to announce the official first Making Babies Baby was born today.

A big congrats to Angelique and her family on the birth of their daughter!

It's been such a privilege sharing your pregnancy on the Making Babies Network.

Now is a really great time for you to chill out and let your emotional batteries recharge -- you've been running too fast for too long! You should be back in the game before you know it.

That is exactly what I'm trying to do. Just chill. Just chill about TTC. Throwing myself into my work. I'm limiting my time on the TTC forum. Well more so from talking about myself on the TTC forum. I don't want to get sucked in again. Just need a breather!

But that doesn't mean I'm not busy finding all kinds of interesting articles and info to share with my MB Network members.

I'm also trying to figure out the whole FAN PAGE thing on Face Book. You will see I added a badge to the left. So become a FAN!!

Work is good. Work is therapeutic. Even though it's centered around TTC, it's not my TTC journey I'm talking about. It's not my emotions. I'm helping someone else. :)