I can officially congratulate my dear friend Annie (and of course her DH) on the wonderful news that they are PREGNANT!!!! I can't say it enough, but I'm so thrilled for you guys!!! It's only been a pleasure sharing this amazing journey with you. I'm so glad we didn't have to swear AF into another dimension this time, it's so much better looking at beautiful BFPs!!! And hearing such awesome beta numbers! Makes it all warm and fuzzy and so worth it!

I know I was tagged by Megs just recently. Is it OK if I comply to the rules a bit later in the week.... ?????

No news this side of the planet. We are just going along with the flow of things. I've done a bit of reading over the last few days. It's been ages since I last just sat down with a book and read. Going to spend much of the week reading too.

I can't believe tomorrow is already the start of April!!!

Happy Birthday PIP!!!

I'm so excited to announce the arrival of a very special little boy, who will hopefully be named soon. But for now Happy Birthday PIP!! Congrats Harriet and Mac. We have waited so long for your arrival!! (Except I thought we had a deal and that you would come on my birthday. But you obviously had other plans).

Our TTC meet yesterday was so awesome. Thanks to all the ladies there. You are all so stunning!! I appreciate every day that I get to share this TTC journey with you!!!

Weekend plans????

As you might have noticed I don't come up with snappy titles I leave that up to the professional bloggers...... :)

I am so looking forward to tomorrow!! We have a TTC meet with some dear on line friends. I can't wait to see you ladies tomorrow again! YAY! It's going to be awesome. This is the first time that so many of us are able to get together. I only wish everyone could have made it, but sadly distance separates us.

You should hear the fun filled events we have planned. T and I are being artificially inseminated. I must just remember to bring the syringes and McD cups, you know the little cups you put your tomato sauce in. Figured they would work best. Then we have a POAS race to see who can POAS the fastest. Remember to take stop watch with....

:) Yeah and I'm sure we will do some other NON TTC related stuff too...

Have a good one and be safe!! x

Two weeks from today, I'm going to be 29..... 29!! My DH and friends are already planing my big 3-0 but can I please just turn 29 first and enjoy my last year being in the "twenties" I can't help that most of my real life friends are over 30...... Come on guys, I keep you young.... LOL..... We always joke that I will be the one sneaking booze into the old age home for them and oiling the wheels on their wheel chairs.

But seriously 29, in two weeks..... I was supposed to be a mother of two by now.... But I will be forever grateful for being the mommy of a gorgeous almost 5 year old. The Big Man wanted me to have her all to myself for a few years.

I'm thinking I'm going to O early this cycle. Had intense O pains last night, still lingering this morning..... If I O today or tomorrow then AF will arrive on my Birthday!!! Bring out the streamers and balloons.......

Got me thinking.....

I've been reading MckMamma's blog ~ My charming kids for quite some time now and I've always been amazed by her way of words and thinking. I do ask that you visit her blog by clicking on the pic below. Her son Stellan needs all the prayers he can, and so does Mamma......

But what got me thinking is her words:

God answers prayers. Just not always in the way or in the time frame we want. God answers prayers, but the outcome we hope for, and beseech God for, is not always the outcome God has in mind.

God hears our prayers. But God still does what He, in His sovereignty, is going to do. He listens to our prayers, hears us each and every time we speak to Him, think to Him, or even groan to Him. God is affected by our prayers and He wants us to pray.

But God is still God and our prayers do not change God or His mind, at least not in the way we sometimes think. He knew we were going to pray before we ever prayed. He knows the past, present and future all at once. He listens to our prayers, but our prayers don't change things. God changes things.

Please see her blog for the rest of the post

Now I'm going to apply this way of thinking to my own situation.

A) If God has already decided that we are not going to have another child now or ever, will it help praying 100 times a day if He has already decided.

B) Or He knows I will be praying and ask everyone else around me to pray, and therefore planned that we will conceive again due to prayer. Because that is the way He has planned it.

Am I making any sense? In my mind I have it figured out already, but I seem to battle to put it into words.

So it's actually totally out of my control. God has already decided whether it's plan A) or plan B).... it's already written out in the big book...........

What do I do? Just lie back and let it work itself out. Or according to the big book I'm supposed to do everything possible to conceive. Even if it includes standing on my head for 7 hours after BD?????

I don't know any more.......

Going to the new Doc?? Is it all a waste of time???? Going for a LAP??? Is it a waste of time?? Crying after a failed cycle?? Is it a waste of time??

Then again, deep down inside I believe that God hasn't decided that we will never have another child. He is just taking his sweet @ss time about it.... Which is ok by me. Really....

Ok, I didn't need the punching bag or the tissues..... ;-)

I need to ask you to keep a very special Couple in your prayers and thoughts. Annie and Joel, I'm crossing everything for your beta!

I'm so very nervous and excited for you both!! It seems so unreal that this week could be the end of one journey and the beginning of another.

Restraining yourself may be tough, but it will definitely be easier than the apologies you'll need to make if you let it fly. Hold your breath, if need be.

Too F-ing late for that!!! Maybe I should have checked my star sign before getting into the argument..........

I need to invest in a punching bag, and some tissues.

Open for suggestions

How ever crazy they may be.....

I'm CD9 today and should be Oing by the weekend. So get your thinking caps on and come up with a fool proof POA for us. I'm done wracking my brain, and since every plan I've come up with over the last 3 years hasn't worked, I think I'm not qualified to get us PG any more.

Anything goes......

As each cycle goes by the b*tch thinks she is welcomed to stay longer and longer!! Gone are my days of short visits from AF..... It's CD6 and she is still lingering around helping herself to the drugs I'm swallowing. I don't think I have ever taken this many pain killers in one week!!! EVER....

And I'm not the pill popping type. It takes me 5 minutes to convince myself that when the water enters my mouth I need to swallow. Pill gets placed right at the back of my throat, hell I could almost place it directly into my stomach if I tried to push it any more back.... Then sip, big sip........... long pause........... just swallow the flucking thing already..................... gulp............... I hate it... I'm pathetic in some ways......

Remind me why are we supposed to be extra happy on a Friday?????

Did I tell you all that I stopped drinking?? Yes, I did, seriously. I only drink beer now. Since beer doesn't contain any alcohol, only red wine does. Well any wine really..... I've been off the wine since our prawn red wine escapade 2 weeks ago... Yay me....

And don't give me the you aren't supposed to be drinking if you are TTC bull sh*t either... I gave up on that one when I fell hard back then cycle 17. Fluck that was 21 cycles ago... Imagine what a cow I would be if I gave up drinking. Oh wait I did give up, that's right... now where is that beer....

I don't often....

Endorse other products on my blog.... LOL yeah it's usually all about me and Making Babies.... But I got an email this morning from a friend about her new site and wow I'm amazed.

If you are looking for a perfect gift for someone, go look here: Spirit Beads I just love the logo "linking with love". It makes you feel so special.

Ok, I couldn't let a post slip without mentioning myself.....

We got an appt date for the new Gynae 25 May 10:00. Yes yes I know seems so far away but it's perfect. I always had May as our month of change. So cross fingers and toes. Who knows, maybe this will end up a PG appt and not a TTC one...... ;-)

Who will it be???

My (Our) Making Babies Social Network is growing beautifully. Although there are still loads of ladies who are a bit shy to chat, but I know you lurk! I can see you **insert evil laugh here**

Currently we have 99 members!! Who will be our 100th member? Come on, register.... it might just be you!! Sorry there isn't a fancy prize only recognition as the 100th member.... :)

I have also added different groups to the network.

1) Waiting to O (where you can chat about the days leading up to O and get some advice from others
2) The insane 2ww (obsession is what we do best)
3) Darn it AF (where you can just b*tch about her arrival)

Of course the group everyone is BDing to get into is the "finally PG" group, which as of recent has acquired 4 new members!!

To register click here

Slowly getting there....

I'm sure you all know by now that we changed Medical Aid (insurance) beginning of the year.... Which yes I'm very grateful for but the plan we are on is limited to certain doctors including Gynae's. Then you need to choose a Gynae that uses one of the limited chosen hospitals. So after working through the list and phoning each one. We have narrowed it down to 2 Gynae's at a very good clinic.

Now I just need to flip a coin and decide which one to go to. Did some "googling" and came across both docs being discussed in various forums. What would we do without TTC forums and opinions of total strangers!!!

Then we need to contact our Network GP, who I haven't met before and ask her to write me a referral to the lucky Doc that gets to see my girly parts!! Once we get the referral, our MA gives us an Auth Code which we can then use to make the appt with the new Gynae....

I can't see us getting an appt within the next 2 months, but at least we are on the right path.....

Being Selfish....

I just need to apologize to anyone who thinks I'm ignoring them today. I'm having a selfish day and only worrying about my state of mind. And trying to sort my stuff out. :)

I often get so wrapped up in other peoples TTC affairs that I put mine on the back burner and forget about it. I forget that I'm important too.....

So if I have not emailed you back or responded to a question it's not because I don't want to. I'm just taking a time out and concentrating on myself.....

x x x

Here we go again....

Why does the cow have to be so blady punctual....

Cycle 38 started less than an hour ago. Darn it, was going to say fluck it.... But I'm trying to remain cool calm and collected.

Drugs, I need drugs....

So we head into another fun filled 28 days. Armed with a new POA and some supplements. Argh, I'm so tired of taking pills and hoping and praying. It's getting old and boring.

Wounded and down........

Saturday 14 March....

I see my tickers have rolled over already to CD1.... I'm actually CD28 today. Haven't seen a CD28 in 4 months, since I've been Oing much earlier... But not this cycle, this cycle we Oed on CD15 hence me being on CD28 today and 13dpo...

Everything about this cycle has been odd. Late O, slow postO rise... High freaking temps the last week.... Higher than the last 36 cycles.... Weird. A positive OPK on CD27?? 4 negative HPTs...

If you recall an earlier post in the month, somewhere I got a star reading saying 14 March would be the day my dream comes true.... Now, come on..... I'm either PG, but I doubt it.... so my next dream is winning the lotto....

That has got to be it! Cause you know winning the lotto seems much easier than actually falling PG right now....

Have a great weekend. Maybe I'll still surprise you all on Monday... LOL

LOL

Ok, I don't think I should be in charge of teaching our daughter letters..... She asked me a certain letter which she pointed to.... it was a "S".... So I say.... "S...ssssss... for... " No I didn't say S E X.... I said "snot".... Now out of all the S words out there why did snot first come to mind....

LOL Have a great weekend!!

Happy Birthday Making Babies!!!!

Tomorrow will be One year since I started “Making Babies”. It's been a year filled with tears, love, excitement, struggle and happiness. I’ve met so many amazing women who have now become dear friends of mine.

I've been blessed to be a part of 32 BFPs and helping couples achieve their dream of becoming parents. I would like to thank each and every one of them for letting me join their journeys.

I've lived vicariously through their TTC journeys and their positive results. It's been my anchor in keeping myself sane and still having faith in finally falling PG. ;-) It has meant more to me than words can even express. Yes there were times when emotionally it was hard on me, but to be able to share in the joy of getting two stripes on a test. Priceless…

They say having your own company is hard work, yes it is... but mine has been a labour of love!! One which I have enjoyed every single little minute of. I’ve given my all into it, my heart and soul.

Of course MB wouldn’t be possible if it wasn’t for a few people. I don’t like singling out people, but I have to mention a few names…..

My dad, thank you daddy for pushing me to do this. Thank you for helping me with decisions whether it was financial, support, design, advertising or just a hug now and then. It was hard to let “family” into my little TTC hole. But you made it easy. And I’m sure I’ve taught you a thing or two about making babies, even though you have four kids already.

My hubby, Craig. Thank you for letting me develop MB. To grow it without having to worry that I was putting all the pressure on you to get us through each month. Thank you for understanding how important this was and still is to me.

My friends, M&H… Your guys support has been so very important to me. Thank you for the bottom of my heart. I know it’s sometimes very hard to do this whole baby talk thing, but you two have always been there for me cheering along the way. Love you guys!!!

Thank you to each person that has supported me!!

Anyway, just thought I would share this with you..... I am very proud of what I have achieved in such a short time..... I only hope MB can grow from strength to strength!!!

Butterflies.....

and fuzzy bunny wabbits.... that is what I'm trying to consume my mind with....

Rainbows and dew drops.....

Little bambi with his big bokkie eyes......

Lets break out into song now:

I see trees of green........ red roses too
I see em bloom..... for me and for you
And I think to myself.... what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue..... clouds of white
Bright blessed days....dark sacred nights
And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world.

Isn't that much better.........

No BS

I had a friend tell me this morning:

but you deserve getting a B F P at 10DPO with no spotting or worries and a trouble free pregnancy to follow - none of this BS!

And I really couldn't agree more.... But I've had my fair share of BS the last 24 hours....

Note to self, do not look at HPTs after the time limit.... really burn them, sacrifice them to the Baby Dust Fairies....

Accompanied with some spotting this morning, I'm going to say this flucking sucks!!!!!! I'm the flucking moer in......

That feels so much better getting that out......

So proud....

My girlie came 5th in an Online Modeling Comp..... For the Face of February!!



I will be pushing you to vote again for the Month of March probably tomorrow once her new pic is up loaded onto the site....

Of course you don't mind voting for her.... she is gorgeous.. :)

Thinking of you today!!!

Annie and Joel

You are both in my thoughts and prayers!!

I hope the egg retrieval goes just wonderfully and that we have some nice healthy plump eggies to deal with!!

I'm very excited for you both and hope this is the start of something amazing!

May the road rise to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
The rain fall soft upon your fields,
And, until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hollow of his hand.

Having one of those days….

Where I can’t really tell what’s wrong. I just have this uncomfortable feeling, something isn’t right. Uneasiness. I’m very emotional today. One minute happy emotional, then the next sad….. Keep swopping from the one to the next. And to top it all off I’m irritable too. I don’t want to be pushed around today or told what to do.

We had an awesome lunch yesterday with friends. I’m not a big fan of prawns, but I ate so many yesterday. As long as DH cleaned and de-shelled them…. I was popping one in after the other. I tried to convince McK to taste one but she wouldn’t budge…. It was divine!!! Thanks M&H for a lovely afternoon!!

Some of my good friends are almost due to give birth soon. So I just want to give a special mention to Jaimie, Harriet and Lindsey!! Wishing you easy labour vibes! Of course H you have to hold a little longer….. Pip is coming 9 April, he will stay put till my birthday!!!! :)

Oh my blog is almost 1 year old, which means Making Babies is almost 1 year old!! Whoo hoo!!

Oh my.,......

The BFPs Gods are being good this week.... I have 2 maybe 3 friends all get their BFPs today (and yesterday)!!!! I would like to wish them the very best and happy healthy pregnancies....

I love seeing BFPs, nothing like 2 lines on a test to set the heart racing and send the emotions into over drive....

I will add that green is not a good colour on me...... LOL

Did I mention that FF moved my O date back to CD13. Doesn't make sense at all, so I'm either 7 or 5 dpo..... which in the grander scheme of things doesn't really matter or won't influence the out come of this cycle. Since we have both CD13 and CD15 covered!! Yay for us.....

So FF confirmed.....

my O date.... Sunday, CD15 So I can officially say bring on the 2ww.....

EDD for this cycle: 21 November 2009... DH's birthday month. Another scorpio.... :) Oooohh that could be another sign... DH just got his scorpion tat done.... he can put babies initials there..... they will share a star sign.... LOL

I need to stop looking for signs. I'm only driving myself insane. You know I wouldn't even buy a new BBT thermometer yesterday. A really nice fancy digital one because I thought it would be a waste of money since we are getting our BFP on 14 March.....

You better get the safety net out, I'm going to fall hard this cycle......

Shocking......

My baby is going to be 5 years old in exactly 2 months.........

We started TTC on her 2nd Bday. Which means our TTC journey is almost 3 years old.....

SHOCKING....

I'm either having very low temps this cycle or I haven't Oed or my therm is on the blink. I'm not impressed at all with my chart.

No real news....

My tat is healing up nicely, but it’s itching like MAD!!! There is nothing I can do about it either. Hopefully there is only another week left of healing……

TTC wise…. Hmmm, I think I’m 1dpo. I Oed a bit later this cycle. Which is maybe a good thing. We will see!