Monday, June 30, 2008

No title.......

I’m fighting a battle, but I only have one soldier…. Myself. Well that is what it feels like. I have absolutely no back up troops, nobody sitting in the trenches waiting for a signal. No one.
What war are you referring to? It’s me against everyone and everything in my life right now. It all just seems like one big up hill battle. God(and he does, cause I’ve told him over and over again) knows I’m trying my damnest to be positive and see the good in everything, but does it have to be so hard?
I’m tired of having to teach my DH the word NO. This is a battle I’m not going to win. Hell his mother should have done that when he was little. If McK ends up being an only child, then please help me not to bring her up as that stereo type Only Child. Who can’t take no for an answer and does as they please. (Apologies if I offend anyone), maybe it’s not because DH is an only child that he acts like this….. But anyway, I couldn’t be bothered trying to figure it out any more. He is a spoilt brat who gets his own way no matter what. And I don’t even care if he reads this post. Believe me it’s much better than the thoughts that are going through my head right now.
I’m tired of fighting with my inner self. Trying to justify what I feel, how I feel. What I don’t feel. What I shouldn’t feel. I don't even know why I'm thinking about all this crap now. Maybe this is all just stemmed from my DH that just has this ability to make me as mad as hell. And then turn around and kiss me good bye with a "I love you". Yeah, how about a frying pan to the back of your head....

Maybe I shouldn’t be venting right now…..



F*cking hormones, get the better of us some time or another……………… Promise I’ll feel better tomorrow.


Lolita said...


you sound like you married my boyfriend-- you didnt did you ?:)

You may think you are alone, and yes you are, but us out here in cyber world are your soldiers..we ve got your back- we just cant be there in person, and you have to do the leg work and hard work.

life is suppose to get easier- or so ive been told. SO now im telling you.