Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Laugh or Cry....

I’ve noticed a trend over the last day or two with some blogs I’ve read through. All about the “quirks” if I could use that word correctly. Which I probably am not… But all the “quirks” about TTC/Fertility. While reading through the lists, some I laughed out loud only because I’ve been there, got the T-shirt.. Others I let out a silent tear, because I’ve been there, got the T-shirt.

I did not write any of these, and I’m not sure who to give the recognition to. But here are just a few that I’ve read. Feel free to ignore the rest of this post, if you have already read this:

That the longer you TTC, the more PG women spring up around you.

That deep down inside, I can be a very jealous person.

That my friends' pregnancies would start to make me sad instead of happy.

That it is insensitive to ask people when they are having a baby!

That other people's "good news" of pregnancy makes me sad and when they tell me they have good news, I hope that they just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Outsurance.

That having AF show up makes you cry, no matter whose bathroom you are in.

That it does not get easier, each cycle is harder than the last.

That a group of "strangers" who I will probably never meet, have now become my "best friends" when it comes to TTC.

That no one I know (in my non TTC life) would have any understanding as to how I feel.

That I would know about other peoples' BD, CP, CM but not know there real name, their DH's name, or their occupation.

That foreplay would consist of DH asking "How's your cervix today"

That I would resent someone who has been trying less time than me telling me "I know how you feel..."

That I would become addicted to POAS and not sleep at night because I couldn't wait to POAS in the morning!

That this would be, by far, one of the hardest things you will ever have to go through.

That I would hear well-meaning questions like: "Have you thought of taking your temperature?" (And this is after 27 months TTC...)

That the two little words of "just relax" uttered by everyone I know would infuriate me beyond belief.

That you feel stupid and naive for thinking a pregnancy would occur "when it was supposed to".

Thank you to the writer of these. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry about the fact that all of the above (and more that I didn’t post) apply to me. But I can say that I’m not alone in through all these TTC (e)motions. The fact that I could actually laugh at myself for a change and not be totally pissed off with my body is a great achievement for me today.