Monday, November 9, 2009

Would you do it again?

I often wonder especially now, if I would ever go through the infertility heartache again. Would I put myself through all that? If I knew how my future was going to turn out, would I have stopped it ages ago and not let infertility or trying to conceive run my life like it did?

Would I do it again? Yes, I think so. I still want another child. One day. So yes, I'm fully prepared to go through all the emotions again. All the frustration, all the stress, all the excitement. All the trying...... I think the next time round will be different because I know exactly what to expect. I hope there will be a next time. I don't doubt for a minute that it won't be heart breaking.

Do I regret going through it? No. I needed it. It changed me. Put everything into perspective for me. I can apply what I learnt from infertility to so many aspects of my life. To appreciate what I have. To have compassion and understanding. I will never say I wasted 3 years of my life TTC. It wasn't a waste. It was a major growth curve for me.

I would never want to do it over or erase it from my life. If I think of my amazing SOP girls. 12 woman who have touched my heart and life in a way I have never thought possible. My dear friend Nicki, who I adore with everything in me!!!! I would never want to imagine my life without her. My mommy girls, my Making Babies members... Each person means so much to me, and play such a huge role. So no, I would never want to erase my 3 year journey. Not for anything in the world.....


Jodie said...

Can gullable me say yep, currantly doing it.

Nicki said...

Oooi don't think you could ever get rid of me my friend :) We will be friends through all the ups, downs and hopefully a couple of bottles of wine some time too. Love u lots XXX

Ele said...

((hugs)) honey

I did it again for a 2nd time. I won't be doing it again for a 3rd. I cannot put myself and my family through all the BS that comes with IVF. Even if this cycle didn't work, I wouldn't be doing it again.

I am one of the lucky ones though. It has worked for us twice.