Monday, November 9, 2009

Would you do it again?

I often wonder especially now, if I would ever go through the infertility heartache again. Would I put myself through all that? If I knew how my future was going to turn out, would I have stopped it ages ago and not let infertility or trying to conceive run my life like it did?

Would I do it again? Yes, I think so. I still want another child. One day. So yes, I'm fully prepared to go through all the emotions again. All the frustration, all the stress, all the excitement. All the trying...... I think the next time round will be different because I know exactly what to expect. I hope there will be a next time. I don't doubt for a minute that it won't be heart breaking.

Do I regret going through it? No. I needed it. It changed me. Put everything into perspective for me. I can apply what I learnt from infertility to so many aspects of my life. To appreciate what I have. To have compassion and understanding. I will never say I wasted 3 years of my life TTC. It wasn't a waste. It was a major growth curve for me.

I would never want to do it over or erase it from my life. If I think of my amazing SOP girls. 12 woman who have touched my heart and life in a way I have never thought possible. My dear friend Nicki, who I adore with everything in me!!!! I would never want to imagine my life without her. My mommy girls, my Making Babies members... Each person means so much to me, and play such a huge role. So no, I would never want to erase my 3 year journey. Not for anything in the world.....

3 comments:

Jodie said...

Can gullable me say yep, currantly doing it.

Nicki said...

Oooi don't think you could ever get rid of me my friend :) We will be friends through all the ups, downs and hopefully a couple of bottles of wine some time too. Love u lots XXX

Em said...

((hugs)) honey

I did it again for a 2nd time. I won't be doing it again for a 3rd. I cannot put myself and my family through all the BS that comes with IVF. Even if this cycle didn't work, I wouldn't be doing it again.

I am one of the lucky ones though. It has worked for us twice.