Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

I'm trying so hard to believe this. Even though things have changed some what for us, I'm hoping its still all part of the plan. Please don't let HIM blink and forget about me......

Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

Yeah I've just bought myself a new wardrobe. Blue leggings, Red cape. Tight yellow vest with the word "M" on the front. I'm working on my powers of moving objects.

Anyway, I'm baby sitting a gorgeous 9 month old baby girl this week. She is too adorable and such a sweet thing. We are having so much fun with her. This includes McK who is loving playing the big sister role. Ah she is going to make such an awesome big sister one day. (Hopefully).

We actually went and bought a heater yesterday. Thought we would make the winter without one, but not a chance!! It was lovely going to sleep in a warm toasty room last night and even better this morning while getting dressed. No knee knocking shivering going on in our house!!!!

McK reading books to Emma:

(excuse McK's raggy look)

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Oh and I just realized that this was my 250th blog entry... LOL, not that you were counting....

Sunday, June 28, 2009

I'm officially FROZEN!!! I've gotten myself a voice activated keyboard. No need to type because my fingers might break off. LOL.

AF started today. Wow, and I was ok with it. :)

If you are interested you can read the July Making Babies Newsletter.

Just click here.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Our next POA

I’m trying to type but my fingers are frozen!!! Ouch!!!

Ok, ummm I don’t want to go into too much details about my “extra personal life”. But we have had some issues this week that have turned our TTC world (and private world) up side down. But plans have been put in place to bring order to it and hopefully soon everything will be back on track.

Next…. Yesterday….. Our appointment with Dr. Lovely.

Firstly our appt was for 1pm. He was running so late, only got to see him at 3pm. Now if I didn’t love him this much I would have been p*ssed. But I do love him, and would have waited till 5pm to see him. Going to break down the appt into sections, so bear with me.

My Results

Everything is beautiful. Blood work came back perfect. Pap smear came back excellent (he said) I was worried about this, since I have in the past had issues with Cancer cells. So this was a relief. My prog test – stunning (he says). So I obviously have nothing hormonal wrong with me.

DH’s Results.

Over all good. Excellent count . (Through the roof – he said). Motility has increased from 50% to 66%. Which is very good news for us. Since his motility rates last time weren’t that great. The only problem is the morphology it’s come down again. 11%. Yes I know not a train smash (he said). But Dr. Lovely is concerned about it.

What now?

Dr. Lovely first wants to get DH’s sperm health up a bit. Says he wants to better our chances. Why work with slightly offish sperm when we can have the best. He gave me the choice of having a LAP done now to check for blocked tubes and what not. Or said we could give ourselves 2-3 months then book the LAP.

That we treat the second infertility once DH is in sperm fit shape (his words). I had to laugh we he said “I guarantee you that mamma will be pregnant by September/October”.

POA.

We give 2-3 months for DH to get his sperm morphology up. How? Well, he needs to stop smoking Nr. 1 and then go on a sperm supplement. We could chose Fertipil Plus or Spermaid.

(See Dr Lovely promotes Fertipil Plus, I sell Fertipil Plus. Match made in Heaven, don’t you think)

He also asked if DH did any strenuous exercise. To which I said, unless you count one golf game a month. To which Dr. Lovely said “No, but golf is excellent for increasing sperm." LOL.

When September comes, I will go see Dr. Lovely to set up the Lap.

Am I ok with this?

Yes, perfect. It all works out for us actually. With all the drama this week, this 2-3 month period is actually a welcomed break. We need some time to get ourselves sorted out. We have some issues to work out, both emotionally and financially. So this is the perfect plan for us.

Am I really ok with this?

My heart is a bit sore. I wanted a solution straight away. It was a tough afternoon. Infertility is not for sissy’s. It’s hard to put logic above emotional need. It was hard sitting in a reception room for 2 hours being surrounded by heavily pregnant women. It was hard listening to heart beats of tiny babies. (Yes the walls aren't that thick there). It was very hard, because I want this so badly.

I cried most of the way home after I dropped DH off at work. But I know this is the best POA for me, for my family.

So technically we are going on a TTC break till September. No official trying. DH has to stop smoking (LOL) and go onto supplements. I have to continue Ovulating so beautifully. We pick up the pieces in September again.

Thanks for everyone’s good wishes and worry over me this week. It’s much appreciated!!!

But I promise you I’m ok. I’ve been better, but I’m ok……

Friday, June 26, 2009

13dpo and D day

I wish I could say I'm excited about seeing Dr. Lovely today. But I'm not.

I wish I could say today will be the start of something great. But I can't.

One person took it all away from me this week.

The one person who is responsible for half of my dream. :(

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I'm still here.... Just don't have anything to say.

I'm in the middle of a storm at the moment. Not sure when it's going to blow over.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Check my Ticker

It seems so weird to read day 26 of 26, a home pregnancy test may work today (or something along those lines). If I didn't temp earlier this cycle, I guess I would be slightly excited. I mean last day of cycle, no spotting. LOL. But in reality I'm only 10dpo today. (Check Chart) So I'm still at least 3 days away from AF's arrival as well as 3 days away from our doc appt.

Still waiting for the SA results. Apparently the nurse sent it to the wrong fax number. Some poor person is busy reading my DH's SA results. LOL. Hopefully I'll still get it today, other wise I'm marching (ok driving) myself over to the lab and going to pick up a copy of the results tomorrow. It's insane that you have to wait like this.

There are some exciting things possibly happening to us. I really hope it all works out. Please let it work out!! Sorry I can't reveal too much. In fear that I jinx it or have to apologize for all the excitement.

Prepare yourself for big changes on at least one front. Your home life, career and relationship status are all up for grabs right now, and while the process may seem difficult at the moment, the end result will be delightful. Ready?

I did something today, that I never thought I would do. But it's the first step. Will let you in on it as the week progresses.

Sweating buckets. Can't believe I did it. Maybe nothing will come of it, maybe something will. Either way something had to be done.

Eeeekkkkkkkk