I seriously can NOT believe it's the last day of April 2009.....

I have 24 more days till my appt with the new Doc.....

Another 3 more days and my baby turns 5!!

Today is my good friend Harriet's Birthday!!! YAY, may you have an awesome day spent with gorgeous Aidan. I can't believe he has been here a month already.

It's another long weekend for us here in S.A. Tomorrow is another public holiday - Workers Day. I can't wait for all these public holidays to be over with, and I'm pretty sure there will be another one next week when they swear in the new President of our Country. Is that the right terminology?? When they swear in?? I don't know, hmmmm.... if I'm wrong please someone correct me.

Oh, my sister Jenna and I went out yesterday at lunch time. She runs a non profit charity and needed to go pick up some goodies for the women's home. We had to pick up the stuff at Lory Animal and Owl Sanctuary. WOW!!!! We knew there were Owls there, but we got the fright of our lives when we turned the corner and got greeted by a huge TIGER!! I have never been so close to a real live TIGER before. Hehe, Jen and I both grabbed each others hands and started walking away really slowly. As if we really thought the cat would jump the fence and attack us. Knowing my luck..... But anyway, after getting a little lost in the sanctuary we came across a beautiful Male Lion and some gorgeous Puma's and baby Puma's. Then another beautiful Tiger who was relaxing in his jacuzzi. Ok, more like his water hole but he looked like a Lord sitting in the middle with just his huge head sticking out. He just needed a cocktail and a cigar to make the scene perfect.

Anyway, I have 3 more days to pull off a last minute planned 5th Birthday Party. We weren't going to have a party for McK this year. But we've decided to go with a BBQ on Sunday. A High School Musical BBQ. McK has given us each a Character to play. LOL. I need to get cakes sorted, party packs packed and so forth.

We have been internetless since Friday. Not fun at all. Although the withdrawal symptoms weren't as bad as what I thought they would be. I might actually be able to go without the net again. Not too soon, but I think I might survive a weekend without it.

We are having a bit of bad luck lately. Our car broke!!! A couple $$$ later, and it's getting fixed at the garage as I type. Our kitchen sink/drain is blocked. Everything just sucks right now....

And I really want to be pregnant..... but sadly I don't think that is going to happen either.

Another 2ww.... the 39th one.....

I think it's pretty safe to say I'm in the 2ww now. Check my chart. I've changed to a new digital BBT thermometer. It measures in Fahrenheit. So it's been a challenge getting used to it and I have to stop myself from switching my FF chart to Degree C. My temps look so low when I do that, but in Fahrenheit it looks perfect!

I'm a little cautious to get too excited about this cycle, but it's the first one in a LONG TIME that our BDing has been timed this well. So it's hard not to be a little optimistic.

I have 29 days left before we see our new doctor. I'm starting to panic slightly. He better be awesome! I'm not going to accept another @sshole.

My PC or should I say internet is still giving me issues. I miss chatting to my SOP girls so much!! :( Me very unhappy, but I'm hoping it will get sorted out over the weekend.

Ovary Ping Pong

Usually I have one sided O pains. But these last 24 hours the cramps are switching from right to left and back again. I wonder which useless ovary will win the game. I'm of course hoping that there are at least a good number of audience members (a.k.a sperm) cheering on.

Nothing much to report on TTC wise. Just waiting waiting. What else does TTC consist of other than more waiting......

Update: Today's OPK

"There is a sense of exhilaration that comes from facing head-on the hard truths and saying, 'We will never give up. We will never capitulate. It might take a long time, but we will find a way to prevail.'"
– Jim Collins

Over the last few days I've found myself thinking about just giving up on TTC. Yeah I know I have a new doc appointment coming up and all that.... But just this past week, I've become very bored with this whole TTC thing. It just seems so pointless lately and not at all "fun".

But then yesterday while walking round the shops, I saw 2 little girls aged 3 and 4 my guess. They were both dressed the same (argh, I hate that... but that's my opinion) in green/white polka dot dresses. Both had blonde hair cut above the shoulders. McK and I happened to walk past them, and would you know my McK had the exact same dress on and same hairstyle. McK says to me, "look mommy we look like sisters." Yeah attack of the polka dot triplets. I say "yeah, you girls do, cute... lets walk.".... McK looks up at me and says "mommy we need to get me a sister so that I don't have to be alone any more."

Aai my girl, I'm trying..... I'm really trying..... but it's getting so hard lately.

Another McK moment, (had to update this entry today)

So my cousin's LO and McK are in the same class. Now T broke her arm and has a pretty pink cast on it. I went to pick McK up now from school, and the teacher had to share the following with me....

McK: "Maam, I also want a pink cast. How do I get one?"

Teacher: "You need to break your arm first in order to get one."

McK: "Maam, come help me please.... "

Teacher said she laughed so hard, and McK wasn't impressed because her Maam wouldn't help her break her arm.....

200th Blog entry....

Can you believe it... I've often in the past started and deleted blogs, so I'm rather impressed that I managed to get to 200 and not given up or gotten bored. So I was thinking what could I possibly do for my 200th post? Thanks to my darling McK, you get to share in this important BIG GIRL moment!!!

BEFORE:



AFTER: (ok, she looks weird in this pic)



McK was so excited about the Tooth Fairy until it got dark and time for bed. She was then terrified!!!! Spent most of the night in our bed, clinging to me with the duvet over her head. After all that, the poor thing was scared of the Tooth Fairy. I even had to carry her to the bathroom and back last night. LOL.

Long time no blog hey. We got to spend some much needed family time away from the PC. So where do I start??

I didn’t quite update my birthday… so lets begin there…..

Wednesday night: We went out with friends, which was only supposed to be 2 drinks but ended up with us getting home at 1am after dancing and “singing” the night away. Thanks Frans and Nita!!

Thursday: I was woken up with a phone call by Frans and Nita, and their two adorable little boys singing happy birthday to me. Now I’m not a big phone person. You won’t easily get me answering the phone…. But who could resist the cute vocals of a 2 and 6 year old. The rest of the day was pretty much uneventful. Actually I spent most of it cursing my PC!!! Thursday Eve: My in laws were having a BBQ for their neighbours which doubled up as a birthday BBQ for me too.

So that was pretty much my “exciting” 29th Birthday. Oh I almost forgot the b*tch arrived as expected. Can’t remember the exact time, but it was about an hour after my post on Thursday!! It was by far the most painful AF I’ve had ever. Not emotionally painful, but physical. Felt like my freaking uterus was being ringed inside out…. Not fun at all. But nothing like 2 tequila’s and some painkillers to put one to sleep……

The rest of the weekend was spent together. Craig didn’t have to work as much as what we thought. We got to hang out with M&H as well. Which was good. We have missed each other over the last few weeks. So it was time well spent catching up. The boys are also planning an exciting “manly” adventure. But I’ll let you all in on that when the final plans have been made.

On McK news:

Argh, I almost put her up for sale yesterday. After dragging her out of the shop kicking and screaming blue murder. Argh, I’m so over her tantrums now. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m now banning her from entering any shops that sell sweets. It’s done. One of us will stay in the car with her, or she stays at home with who ever. Giving her the big Speech about her being a BIG girl doesn’t work any more, neither does a good hiding. I can’t even threaten her any more. She sees straight through it.

She still has her woobly tooth. I was hoping it would have fallen out over the weekend, but it didn’t. She wants her Uncle Mathi to pull it for her, but it’s still pretty tight for pulling. M leaves on Thursday for holiday, so maybe there is still a chance he will pull it before then although I doubt it.

On TTC news:

It’s CD6. AF pretty much flew by without much fuss, except for those first 2 days of uterus wrenching cramps. I’m undecided on what our POA is for this cycle. Number 39. We have just over a month to go until we see our new doctor. Still have one more AF to get before seeing him. We will see him towards the end of cycle 40. I’m hoping as always that we won’t be seeing him for a TTC appt, but rather a PG one. I guess some times my heart is more foolish than my brain……

Oh, I need to update two very AWESOME things:

1) My dear friend Annie, who I blogged about just recently found out they are having TWINS!!! YAY!! I’m so stoked for them

2) Then another dear friend, Lindsey, gave birth to a gorgeous baby girl, Alyssa. Well done mommy!!!!

Then I need you all to go over to Megs, and drop off some baby dust please!!!!

Ok, now that I’ve taken up way too much of your time….. let me get going. Till we meet again…. Take care x x x

Happy Birthday..

To Me

I would like to wish myself a wonderful day. May the year ahead be filled with more ups than downs.

ps, I'm expecting a visitor today. Not going to mention her name. But I hope she'll spare me until tomorrow...... ;-)

Hello Spotting, my old friend.....

Cycle 38 coming to an end.....

And so the problems continue... Not sure, but my PC is on Crack!!!! Today I can't even send out mail. :( It sucks to be so totally dependent on the internet. I can't do anything without it. At least blogger still works. For now....

Oh big news. McK has a loose tooth. Bottom front. I'm hysterical about it. In tears. This only means that my baby is now really becoming a big girl. I'm giving it about a day or two before it falls out. I better be around when it does. I gave McK such a speech that by no means is her teacher allowed to pull that tooth. It's her first one, and I her mommy has to be within looking distance when it happens!!!

My baby is loosing a tooth!!!! Sob sob sob..... this is indeed a weird messed up on Crack week......

Argh...... Can I please go back to bed?

This morning started off cr@p and I'm pretty sure today will continue to go cr@ppy too.

Worst of all, I can't access any of my forums or my social networks. Well I can lurk and read, but if I try to post it throws me out. Why you ask..... I tell you why....

My brother installed some fancy new high tech internet rooter, (ok, I don't know exactly what it is but anyway..) it regards forums and social networks as "a waste of time" "spam" what ever, functions and blocks me from using this service. Sucks hey. Very frustrating. I wonder if it will even allow me to post this blog.

I'm going to hit submit and then if it throws me out, I'm going to swear like a flucking something and maybe throw something and go back to bed.....

Thought I would let you all in on a conversation I had with my 4 almost 5 year old McK on the way home from the shops this afternoon…. (Take note, it started because I wouldn’t buy her a toy.)

McK: But mommy, you don’t ever buy me anything

Tears welling up

Me: What about yesterday, I bought you TWO polly pocket dolls

McK: Now I’m shame

More tears

Me: Why you shame

McK: Cause you won’t buy your little child nuffing

Sniffing the tears back

Me: Sorry I’m an awful mommy, would you like to swop me?

McK: Yes, I want Tayla’s mommy

Me: Why Tayla’s mommy?

McK: Cause she buys her child a toy everyday

Long silence (long as in 5 seconds) Looking out the window

McK: Are you going to have a baby mommy?

Me: Some day angel, we are working on it. Maybe you should ask God for a brother or sister.

McK: I do, I ask every day at school. But I get nuffing!!!

Big tears…..

Me: Ah don’t cry…..

McK: Look at my hands mommy, I got nuffing in them. You always buy me nuffing

Me: **insert giggle here**

McK: Don’t laugh at me. You are being selfish. I still have nuffing.

Me: Come get out the car……….