You'll actually enjoy your job now, even if you ordinarily hate it. If you already love it, your enthusiasm will be running over. Tamp it down? Nah. Turn it up!

And do I love my job!!! I get to meet the most awesome people. It's so rewarding in so many ways. I'm finally happy with what I'm doing.

If you told me 3 years ago I would be running my own company, working from home and loving it. I would never have believed you. I was always a person that just needed to be somewhere in the background. Now I'm kind of focused center stage. I do sometimes get scared and nervous. But it's good for me.

I get so many wonderful compliments. Not that I'm trying to blow my own horn. But sometimes it's nice to be appreciated for who you are and what you do. I make a difference in some people's lives. WOW!!! It is a great feeling.

150

That's how many blog entries I have to date... :) Yay me....

Does anyone do anything special for their 150th entry?? I haven't seen anything done by fellow bloggers.

I'm trying really hard to get back into this whole TTC thing. I actually hauled out my thermometer two days ago. Surprised it still works. You can check out my chart, by clicking the link somewhere to the right of my blog. Nothing much to see yet. I told DH that I would temp until confirmed O and then stop again. I'm guessing O should occur within the next 4 to 5 days.

I think I'm nervous about this whole thing. Please please pretty please can this cycle end very different to last 35 cycles... PLEASE!!!

29 January

C & M




Remembering the dream…….

Remembering the excitement…….

Remembering the tears…….

Remembering the loss……..

Hello :)

I've been so busy working on my "secret project" that I've been neglecting blogging... Sorry....

I still have a raging headache, but maybe that's from all the hours spent behind the PC screen.

I got a quirky(if that's the right word for it) email today. Loved this one:

Martha's Way: Don't throw out all that leftover wine. Freeze into ice cubes for future use in casseroles and sauces.

Muriel's Way: Leftover wine??????????? HELLOooooooooooooo!!!

Yeah, I couldn't see any left over wine in our house either, never mind freezing them into ice cubes for casseroles?? Do I even know how to make a casserole???

I hope all is well in TTC land, Baby land or what ever planet you are on today!!!

Take care x x x

So do you like my new ticker above?? I saw a few of them on a forum, thought it was kind of cool. So now you can all just have a looksie as to where and what is exactly happening this cycle round.

I'm not so sure if I'm 100% committed to this cycle. I feel less obsessed, more relaxed. Which is maybe a good thing. Who knows really.

Had a great weekend, and it's put me in a much better mood. I don't think I ever want last week over again. I never want to feel like that ever again.

Wait I can't stay, my head is going to explode. Need pain killers!!!!

Annie, wishing you and J the very best for tomorrows appt. You two will be in my thoughts all day. Can't wait for the update!!

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, 'My son, the battle is between 'two wolves' inside us all.

'One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.'

'The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.'

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, 'Which wolf wins?'

The old Cherokee simply replied, 'The one you feed.'

My friend, you are feeding the wrong wolf. And I'm not sure how to convince you to stop!

All Aboard!!!

So I was spot on with my O date last cycle. I just knew it was CD11. I guess my body really wanted to get back onto the TTC train sooner!!

Here we are CD1. We are going to give it 3 more months before finding a new and more supportive Gynae. DH and myself will be on some supplements, Fertipil Plus and Fertivor. Not going to temp. I've kicked the thermometer habit, so I'm not going back to it.

Yay for us, I hope it happens soon.......

*Growing old is mandatory;
Growing up is optional*

And that is going to be my new motto for this week, month, maybe year.......

I refuse to grow up!!!!!!!!!!!! Why???? :)

I'm waiting patiently for the witch to show her face, she is coming early this cycle.... Then we can get this show on the road again.

everything is perfect...........

And that is all I have to say.............

I had to delete my original entry for today due to people being worried about me......

I've had a kak weekend.... topped off with a baby shower today. Which I just couldn't deal with.............

Anyway.............. Can't people just let me be a little sad for 24 hours......

It’s almost 3 years to the day when I walked into Keep It Real Tattoo Studios. No I wasn’t getting another tat. I was going for a piercing, a nose stud. Always wanted one but always to chicken shit. Yeah this coming from a tat lover, who has a proud collection of 4, soon to be added too…. Ok, I’m getting off track…..

Anyway…..

We got to the mall and stood at the bottom of the escalators. Gordon saw my sister (she was with me). He came running down, grabbed us and up we went. I remember him bouncing to some form of music, can’t tell you what song it was though.

He spun me around, made me sit. Shouted “pink or blue”. I whispered blue back… “Sit still love, you have gorgeous eyes.”… Done…. It was in. I don’t remember much except the shaking part.

So this stud has been a part of my body for the last 3 years. It’s a permanent piercing, meaning it doesn’t come out without force. Force being a pair of side cutters. Over the weekend the blue stone had fallen out. So it looked odd. Time for a new one. Which meant taking the damaged one out and replacing it……..

I asked my sister to remove it for me. She picked up the side cutters. Came closer…. No blady ways!!!! I’ll do it myself I decide. So after 10 minutes of shaking, clasping, shaking some more. Off the top part of the stud flew across the bathroom. Shaking…… I pick up the new stud, push it in….. Done, still shaking, hot flushes.

I imagine this feeling is going to come again when I get my BFP!!!! YAY……

Now my nose is burning. Hope it doesn’t fall off……

Some good news.....

Our medical aid has decided NOT to put us on a waiting period. YAY YAY YAY....

So what does that mean?????

Well this blog reverts back to a TTC blog... LOL

Technically only in 10 days time once AF arrives. Then it's full steam back into TTC!!!

I'm very excited. Feels like I'm starting from scratch again, full of positivity. This break was definitely good for my sanity. Lets hope we don't make the 3 year anniversary of TTC. It's coming up soon........

Kobus Van Rooyen

8 October 1942 - 7 January 2009

We have such fond memories of a great Uncle. We will always treasure those times.

You will be missed!!

RIP

Way too excited!!!

After a week of hard work, I'm proud to introduce the new Making Babies website!! Please do check it out and let me know what you think.

We(I) have also added a new range of Fertility Supplements which I'm very excited about!!!

What a weekend, I think I'm still trying to recover. Let me just say I think I'm too old to go clubbing!!!! Ha Ha!!! Or is it too old to handle the hangover from Clubbing??????

McK is back at school today. YAY!!! She was so excited to return to school and her friends. I just hope it doesn't rain all day. Don't think it would be nice to be cooped up in a class room on your first day back.

Have a great week!!!

Angie and Jakes

My Angel Baby

To the baby that I carried
But never seen your eyes
Or tell you how much I loved you
Or ever to hear your cries.

You will never be forgotten
The excitement we had for your coming.
When I realized I'd never hold you,
The feeling I had was numbing.
My angel baby is who you are.
My angel baby you'll always be.
Your loving memory will live in my heart
So you will always be right here with me.

My heart just breaks for your loss my friend.

Giggle......

Oh I just love this.....

A tragic demise

Sir, you are very talented!!!

Ok, back to work...........

Oops it happened again

I'm fuming!!!!!

I've been working all day on the MB site, only to have it crash again!!! All the work I've done today is gone!!

Please come back and visit tomorrow again.

How frustrating!! I was so excited about my new supplements!!!

Very exciting news.......

I've been keeping myself rather busy the last few days with Making Babies. Yeah, I do actually work at times.

I'm very excited about a new product range that we have on offer. Please do go check out the new Fertility Supplements on the site. :-)

Did I mention that I'm giving the site a face lift too? I'm so tired of the old look, it's time to give it a make over.

It's my sister's birthday today!! Yay, she is 24 today and the best sister in the entire world. Happy birthday my hun. I know the year started off rocky for you, but only good stuff is written on the stars for you!!!

Happy happy!!!!

If you can imagine it, you can have it. How many times have you heard those words and wondered if they were really true? Well, wonder no longer. You'll know soon enough that they're not only true, they're limitless. Don't impose any 'shoulds' on your future.

Oh boy, now that is my kind of star sign. :-)

There are so many things I’m putting out there. I’m being selfish and hoping a lot of things for myself. And only myself. Everything from personal to business issues.

Remember I mentioned a while back about my friends nagging on me to write a book. Well it’s almost done. The ground work has been laid, now I just need to szoosh it up a bit.

I’m trying so hard to let go of negative thoughts and only think happy positive ones. But it’s hard to stay focused on the positive. I’m going to try though.

Today is a new day…………..

Ooooh look at my precious.....

I broke it.....

Would you believe it... something told me, don't start work till Monday.. but no, I had to do a little something today because I felt guilty.....

And what did I do.... I broke my freaking website. Yip, makingbabies.co.za is broken..... Hopefully it will be back to normal by late today. I hope.

Sorry to everyone that was busy surfing or reading. I saw I had 8 guests, but I rudely chucked you all off...... :(

Where does one even begin to start? I’m also in no mood to write a long novel of our Christmas festivities. So maybe just a short recap would be good enough???

Christmas Eve was spent at the In Laws. They had a few of their neighbours over too. It was nice as can be. Especially was MIL’s famous snacks. Just love the food she makes. DEVINE. I had one neighbour asking all the “are you going to have another child” questions, and then she added “you know you should ask your doctor for Clomid that is sure to get you pregnant in no time”. Yeah hun, I’ve done a combined 10 months on Clomid……..

Christmas Day we had lunch with my parents at their new home. It was great to have our whole family there. Dad made Turkey and salads. We all ate way too much and then decided to all take a lie down on the grass under the shade. McK ended up being covered in ink drawings, thanks Uncle Precious. It took almost 3 days of scrubbing to get all the ink off.

In between Christmas and New Years we spent a lot of time between the Parents/In Laws and of course my most favourite people in the world. M&H

The weather has been unbelievably hot. Gross hot. Luckily we have had some scary rain storms to cool it down in between. Lighting even hit one of our trees. Snapped it in half. (Wasn’t such a big tree though).

Ok, enough weather chit chat.

New Years Party…… 31 December. Oh wow!! I haven’t had so much fun in such a long long long time!!!!!! We danced and danced, and laughed and cried. The drinks were yummy, and the company fantastic. M&H I thank you again for an awesome party and an awesome friendship. I’ll see if I can get some pics, and share them. We wrapped most of M&H’s bar in tin foil. Everything was silver. So cool. I think everyone had a great time.

I’m just a little bit sorry about the 10 banana cream shots that S & I devoured in the back of the kitchen HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

All in all, it was GREAT!!!!

Now I have to get my mind back into the swing of work work work. Well only from Monday onwards. I need some inspiration?? Anyone got some advice for me???

Oh on TTC news….. CD5 or 6 I think. Can’t really remember when AF started. I know I was a little bit sad but making peace with it. Can you believe it was the first cycle were I didn’t even TEST!! No POAS for me. Wow, that in itself is an amazing achievement. One month clean of POAS. LOL. Maybe the habit has been broken. Let’s see if I can pull off another month.

BTW, I won’t be writing everyday on this blog. But do check in every now and then. I won’t go MIA again, but my net usage is very limited at the moment. I’m also going to try and concentrate more on work too.