Baking Maybe's

I always wonder if bloggers come up with their quirky titles first, or do they write the entry and then the title comes to mind. Cause I got nothing. Not that my titles are anything award winning or quirky. They (being mine) mostly irritate me and I leave it out. Does the title make you want to read the entry? Just wondering.

So I wrote an eBook not so long ago. Yeah you wouldn't say so by the lack in quality of blog posts I've been submitting the last few months. Blogging just got a bit ARGH *insert rolling eyes* for me. Lets say I hit a bloggers block. It just started feeling like I was writing the same thing over and over again. Moaning and complaining, nagging and b*tching. All so mundane. I couldn't even care to fix spelling mistakes or grammar. I also thought "I better just write something just in case someone was actually reading".

Anyway, back to the eBook. "Baking Maybe's" Yeah kind of a spin off from baking a bun in the oven..... Baking a maybe.... that maybe I'm pregnant kind of thing. Now that is a quirky title. Which I didn't come up with. It was my assistant at 2am in the morning many many moons ago. We decided to release the eBook "internationally", which in itself is pretty cool. My assistant (aka my dad) has been setting up Credit Card Payment facilities on my site in order for this to happen. He has also been hard at work, designing my new "landing page" for the MB site. I know I said I was hard at work on it, but do you know how much hard work it is to sit here and criticize and make him do it over and over again. Fix that colour, fix that sentence. Believe me it's no easy task. I break out into a sweat.

(I quickly went and had a look in my blog archive if I have ever mentioned "Baking Maybe's" and see that I haven't. Strange. Just goes to show in true Marcelle style I don't blow my own horn.)

So what is the eBook about? Some ramblings about infertility, specifically my infertility and then some useful need to know TTC advice/tips. It's hard to "review" your own work, but from what I hear and read, women actually loved it. My assistant says "of course they did, it's great"... Ja ja... I don't even own a horn.

We are just trying to get the links to work for the new landing page, it does work on my google stuff. (I'm sure there is a better word than "stuff" but my assistant is busy so I'm not going to bother him for the right technical jargon.)

DH and Sister Nicky got better acquainted this morning at the Lab. I think even she was impressed that DH decided to use the Lab bathroom and not produce the sample at home. Which may I add I'm so happy and relieved about. I was so concerned that it wouldn't be accurate, that the boys would either freeze to death or get scorched while trying to keep them warm on their 20 minute car ride. So yes, my DH is a star for doing it at the lab. Of course I had a million questions when he got back to the office. I wasn't liking the one word answers I was getting.

"How was it?"
"Fine"
"So you done?"
"Yip"
"Did you spill"
"No"
"Did you ask her to fax the results to us as well?"
"Ja"
"Was she hot?" (meaning the nurse, we had joked about it in the car before he went)
"Stop being ridiculous now and no she was old"

Another 7 days until we get those results and 7 days later we will be sitting in Dr Lovely's office discussing "What now". 14 days, another 2ww of a different kind.

Coming back to my assistant. Couldn't have asked for a better one! Thank you so so much for all the hard work this week. :)

I keep having to come back and edit this post. I have added a "download" sample extract from the eBook. :) Give me your thoughts.

I don't know what to do with myself

It just feels so weird. My brain has been trained for the last 3 years that when the O cramps start, it's time to sms/email/phone/joke/lure DH into that one or three BD sessions that you are convinced will be the one to get us PG. Here I sit, left ovary twitching and as the minutes go past it aches more......

Darn it, I know that I'm about to O. The big SA is tomorrow. So I sit here with this empty feeling. I can't do anything about it. My heart is sore ok. It's the weirdest feeling. You try and try and try and fail and fail and fail. But it's ok, because you tried your damnest. But this cycle..... this cycle there is no trying so it can't technically equal fail. It's just a missed chance.

Yes I know the whole if you O today/tomorrow you will still be able to BD after the SA and hopefully still stand a chance. I know the egg survives about 8-12 hours. You can't teach me any new tricks. Argh.

Then I comfort (if you can call it comfort) myself with thinking, HELLO silly... You have been doing this for 3 years and nothing has happened, what makes you think that this cycle would have been any different. That is why you are seeing Doctor Lovely on 26 June, so that he can help... Silly girl, imagine falling PG on your own.

Don't beat yourself up about missing O this one freaking time.

Aaaahhhhhh

What a way to start my morning..... I had this whole post in mind but I've hit a blank after reading some awesome news. Our dear blogger, Xbox is going to be a daddy! I call him Our dear blogger, because unknown it to him he does still have a few South African lurkers that read his blog daily and have been waiting for this day. Awesomeness beyond.....

Some TTC updates from my side. DH goes this Thursday for the SA. So no BD this week. It's CD12 today, I usually O on CD12. Haven't noticed anything as of yet that relates to O. I'm still spotting??? WTF??? We then see Doctor Lovely on 26 June for the results of both our tests. So bring on this 2ww, going to be an interesting one!

I did it.... well sort of...

Two weeks ago I got this insane idea to knit a freaking scarf. I don't know how to knit, I remember attempting it in Primary School for a Home Economics project but if I remember correctly I cheated and got my mother to do it for me. So when I woke up with this crazy idea to knit I was half excited half nervous.

Attempt 1:

Started off with casting on 40 stitches. (Cheated and got my mom to start it) I knitted about 40 rows. For the life of me I could not figure out why the wool was no longer fitting onto the needles. Count stitches, fluck 94. How the hell???

Attempt 2:

Started off with casting on 40 stitches. (Cheated and got my mom to start it again) Hmmmm, come on you have to be kidding me... 66 stitches. Pull it all apart and go buy different wool. It has to be the wool right?

Attempt 3:

Started off with casting on 35 stitches. (Of course cheated and got my mom to start it) Went well until I felt that it seemed to wide for my liking. Pull it all out again and restart....

Attempt 4:

Yes yes, mom casted the stitches on for me again, 26 this time...... All went very well until Saturday when I just gave up. It wasn't long enough for an adult to wear and I decided to hang up my knitting needles. My adorable McK decided that the scarf was perfect for her. So she has been modeling it since Saturday morning.

Here is the pic. (Excuse the half asleep grumpy 5 year old)



So this was my secret new hobby/project that I have been working on for the last 2 weeks. I have decided that it's not my thing.

Oh, this pic below was taken 10 minutes before the above scarf pic. LOL



Imagine being ripped out of bed to pose with a scarf.... LOL I would be pretty p*ssed off too....

Glyco What.....

Yeah that was what I was thinking about 4 days ago, (ok I lie about 2 weeks ago) Glyconutrients. What a fascinating subject and supplement. Can you feel a shameless plug coming on?? Well it is my blog and I can do what I want right??

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On a side note: I have 3 and a half days left of my secret project..... Cr@p... Stress.... let me get on it.....

Forced Break....

Ok so it looks like Cycle 41 is going to be a "forced break" from TTC. Maybe a good thing. We changed DH's SA test to next week Thursday (personal reason, I so don't feel like going into). Since you have to abstain for 3-5 days before the test we are going to totally miss the O boat. Since the abstaining period falls right over my CD11-14. I have been Oing CD12/13 for the last few cycles. So unless my body decides to O later this cycle, we are going to have to chuck Cycle 41 on the back burner.

Now you all say, so do the SA the following week after that.... Naah, we have wasted enough time. What if we do, then I still don't fall PG and it's just more wasted effort. I'll rather get the SA over and done with so that I can go see Doctor Lovely and get cracking!!

I think I'm ok with that. We have so much going on around here, it might be good to take my mind off of TTC and focus focus focus....

Wow, what am I going to obsess about this 2ww? Any ideas?

The Meet.....

So at long last, (3 years) I finally got to meet Nicki and her gorgeous boy Connor. (I've known the little boy since he was 2 lines on a HPT LOL). We had a great afternoon at the Irene Dairy farm along with some friends from Mommy. It was good seeing you ladies again and the kids are still as cute as ever!

What will the month of June bring us? I'm hoping some answers and a lot of luck. Not just with TTC efforts but over all. I(we) could seriously do with a lucky break.

I'm getting my nails done this morning. A friend of my sisters needs a "model" for her exam. She is studying nail technician (something like that). I don't mind, I get a free manicure... (and if she can convince me a pedicure too.)

And that is all from me. My mind is some where else, so let me rather go find it.